Today is "the" day....my future career kinda depends on it..I hope the company likes my result and want me...pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....come on...this weekend is going to be very exciting..looking forward for it..I hope I just don't get disappointed...

some times parents want to help out in their children's matters but instead of helping them they just make everything worse and drive the kid away from themselves...tonight is just one example...I just want to cry and scream because they don't get what I am saying or they get it but don't want to listen to it..they might be right but I don't want their values to run my life...they made me feel jealus of the only person and my best friend that I would never be..I love her too much to be jealus but they way my parents say some stuff I just want to screammmmmmmmm....I don't get it...I will say this and I have said it and I say it a million times...I will marry some one who value my personality..my ideas and dreams some one who is my best friend someone who has no problem to go against the odds and have his own way of thinking even thought it may be strange for his time...I want someone who is independent in all aspect of life....someone who can see my soul...someone who is not after the stuff that will become like a routine in life...THIS IS WHO I WANT...NOT SOMEONE WHO COMES AND LIKES ME FOR MY LOOKS OR FOR MONEY OR FOR WHATEVER REASON OTHER AS I SAID...the same way that I won't even like guys who try to impress a girl by putting too much gel in their hair or act arrogent or snobby...taking their dad's car....I am an independent girl who wants to make changes in her life and other people's life..I still not sure 100% how but I have ideas...yes I am different...I am unique because I have a dream and want to get to that dream...and I want to share my life with someone with passion of improvement and challenge and ambitious...but my beloved parents don't think of marriage that way...they think because I have not met someone I like there is probably something wrong with me...may be too much fat!!may be too serious...may be ....may be....LEAVE ME ALONE......I don't want to marry in a haste and I don't want to settle for less than what I worth

on the weekend my family and I were invited to go to a resort in Berry with one of my dad's friends. It was the nicest villa I have ever seen..it was very nice and the jungle was great..but too steep for me I am scared of height but the whole experience was great:) I got an email from "A"..he seems a nice guy..I hope he is the guy I always dreamt....;)